As I transform any one part of me... all of me is being transformed.
Yesterday I was out walking the dogs. We walked briskly for 30 minutes and it felt amazing. The rain was falling, the dogs looked a bit cold but I could tell they were happy to be moving.
I stopped half way into the walk noticing the beauty of the creek and the plant life in the park. I took in a deep breath and gave thanks as I inhaled deeply as if breathing in the air and the view. I felt in aw as I often do when gazing upon nature.
Right as we were walking a bit more, I could feel the shift in my muscles that happens right when the walk becomes a workout and I can feel a slight pain. I suddenly remembered how the year before I could not reach that kind of "good" pain as the "bad" pain in my bones and muscles was all still far too intense from the car crash in May of 2007. I suddenly realized that the walk that took me 45 minutes a year and half ago now takes me about 10 minutes and so I go beyond that in time and length to walk 30 t0 60 minutes. It hit me deep down to my soul how much my body and my mind had transformed. I stopped for a few seconds as I began to cry. I was walking!!! I was walking briskly and I was enjoying every step... no worries of falling, no worries of not being able to make it back, no worries of pain (injury pain aka the bad pain), no worries of functioning afterword, but I was experiencing FREEDOM... true freedom!
The decisions I have made to invest my time, my focus, my energy, my resources on healing my body, my mind and my family... and on continuing our education in health and wellness and to have FUN... is paying off!
My focus is: What CAN I do? What can I do right NOW? What can I give, teach, learn, receive, be grateful for, experience, enjoy?
What movement can I accomplish with my body? What Different food choice can I make in THIS moment?
I ask myself; just for today, or just in this moment, what healthy choice can I make, and then I DO what I CAN.
Perhaps the choice is to walk across the room 3 times because that is what I KNOW I can do. Or perhaps to see how many exercises I can do at a steady easy pace while waiting on the tea? What can I do instead of watching another show on Netflix, what documentary on health and wellness can I study?
One choice at a time... one more movement... one more opportunity to move my body that I couldn't do a year before, a month before or even a week before. I don't spend much time counting my "failures" or unhealthy choices.. rather... I keep my chin up and my eyes on my goals. When I make a choice that is counter productive, I try to stay in the lesson of it and ask myself; "ok, that was that, in the future, what can and will you do to set yourself up for success?" I starting finding solutions such as keeping apples in my car instead of buying fast food, or wearing a jacket instead of saying it's too cold to go for a walk. So many "I can's" have been discovered in this mindset.
A little over 5 years ago I could not hug my loved ones. My arms were also damaged severely in that car crash, i could not feed myself or breath on my own for long periods of time (over a few hours) without needing a breathing treatment at the least.
But yesterday, I was out walking BRISKLY with my dogs.. one of which struggled to keep up with me. I was taking in the cool air and feeling the burn in my muscles.
5 years ago, I couldn't walk but 10 - 30 steps on my own without sever pain.
I have far more clarity of thought, far more joy, far more awareness of the beauty around me and far more abilities to get out and experience the joys of life.
All by doing what I can, when I can, not more than I can, but definitely pushing the edge of what I can in order to expand what I can.
Today, not only do I get to invest in my health and wellness and that of my children. Today I get to participate in their lives, earn money to support us, earn money to support out goals and dreams and I get to hug my family as much as i want, because I CAN.
I am so very grateful for all of those that take my AHA courses, learn EFT tapping from me and that participate in the Body by Vi challenge.... all of these things contribute towards the transformation I am experiencing and that which I get to assist my family with.
As well, we donate money to endangered species and to local community charities... because we CAN. :)
The first year and a half that I was co-teaching AHA courses it was a very difficult thing for me. My family and I had been in such poverty, surviving on public assistance and no support from the community as the doctors insisted there was no chance for me and as some doctors insisted that there was still a chance I would not live long... community services do not invest in folks with that kind of outlook. BUT a couple of friends decided to assist me in learning how to teach these classes and to support me until I could do it on my own.
We have been off public assistance now for nearly 2 years and earning enough to cover our basic expenses on our own. We have overcome the barriers regardless of the "NO's" we received and kept looking for the yes's and the what can be done... as a family... we have come a long way and are still moving forward. I'll write more in this another time. :)
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