In the 1980"s my dream was to be a fitness instructor and nutrition specialist. By the 1990's I became a social worker. Things change. :)
I experienced my first mild heart attack while running in the gym.
I was 21 years old, 5'8, 135 lbs. I was in GREAT shape. I worked out about 1.5 -2 hours a day. I loved being fit and enjoying the benefits of a fit young body. But that day I woke up with my shirt cut open and a bunch of men standing over me and a horrible pain in my chest was an eye opener to say the least.
The fist thing I did was to try to assault the men, once they helped me understand that they were saving me and not there to hurt me I then calmed down enough to ask for the time. My daughter was in child care and I didn't want her worried if I was late picking her up.
I later learned that even though I was in a size 3 jeans and fit as could be, the years of malnutrition as a child, as well as the illnesses I had as a child and the years of anorexia as a teen had all left strain on my heart. I also learned that even though my fat level was very low my bad cholesterol was 335. I jumped into my studies to find out why it was high and how I could lower it. I brought it down that year to 186. I stopped all of the fried chicken and the other fried foods that I grew up on and rarely went back.
When I had surgeries later in life, each time I was told I had mild cardiovascular episodes.
In May, 2007 I had a horrible car crash that left me dead at the scene and over the next several months (10 months to be exact) I had been pronounced dead 5 times all together and brought back at least 6 more times.
My body was crushed, all of my large bones shattered, many other bones broken and most of my muscles torn, plus my spleen and lungs were punctured. I was life flighted from Salem to Emmanuel Legacy up in Portland. I spent about 2 months in a medically induced coma and up to 6 months in the hospital, most of which were in ICU or in the Track Unit.
I spend the majority of the first 3 years bed ridden. After the first year and a half I could walk enough to go to the bathroom on my own or to the car (a few yards away). But if I walked to the car, then I was in bed needing help up for at least 3 days after that.
I spend about 14 - 18 hours a day in bed unable to do much more than to make it to the bathroom.
There is far too much detail for that accident for me to describe, I'll save it for my book. :)
Here is what I want my family and others to know from this:
- No matter what the doctors say or how you feel, there is always more that you can do.
- Always focus on what you can do.
- Learn what your limits are and then with gentleness and daily efforts, expand that.
- Never do more than you can no matter how cruel others treat you.
- Never do less than you can.
- No matter how "disabled you are, you are worth far more than your body and abilities"
- No matter how hard things are, you are not defined by your body.
There are a ton more to this too.... I'll save that for another time as well.
Here are some of my goals with this health and safety business:
- To give back to my community.
- To provide healthy options for myself and for my family.
- To provide more options for the education of my children.
- To constantly invest my time, money and energy towards healing and improving my body.
I'm sharing this with you so that you know this is not just a corporation with robots running the show. This is a small business with a real person with a real family and real dreams.
At this point I weigh about 211 lbs. I started at 278 two years ago. So far, I have finally gone from the rehab level of fitness to actual beginners level (aka: normal) of workouts, which means I'm healing and releasing fat. Whoop!
My goal is to release another 40 lbs in the next 6 months or so and to increase endurance.
The biggest focus for the last 2.5 years has been changing the emotional and mental state with EFT tapping, Changing my nutritional intake with EFT tapping, study, and making healthier choices daily. I've been able to make dozens of nutritional changes as I advance my education and release emotional blocks.
I have also began to rebuild muscle, flexibility and endurance.
My doctors said I'd never... and then they often had a LONG list of never agains. However, I have surpassed ALL of their limits and will continue to do so.
Be well and be kind to yourself.